Last year started with a
crusty-eyed glance out of a second-story bedroom window in the
Cactus Hostel in La Paz Bolivia. As I focussed my vision and adjusted
to the harsh light coming in through the thin, high-altitude air, I
saw a condom – mine, fresh from the early-morning ,sloppy, drunk
frecking only a few hours before – dangling off of an electricity
cable over the street and dripping Nobel Prize Winners onto the
pavement below. Two-Thousand and Twelve was a good year.
When
I came back from Bolivia it was the middle of February, and I had a
girl travelling from France – the other side of the world – to
Australia to come and be with me. No story has ever begun more
beautifully, but it only took me five weeks between her decision and
her arrival for me to ruin it... not that I'm bitter or angry at
myself, these things just happen, and the luxury of time passed
allows me to speak so frankly about it. But I messed that one up, and
hurt a lovely girl quite unnecessarily in the process, she really was
lovely. She really is. Lovely. We were together for two weeks full of
shame and falsity and when everything unravelled it took only a few
days to destroy a summer's worth of good memories. They weren't
destroyed forever, I look back and smile now, but when it was
happening, it was tough. Easter was tough. I bawled my eyes out after
she left in the side-street behind the Cranka just of Rundle, but
after that I couldn't cry anymore, which surprised me a little.
Two-Thousand and Twelve surprised me.
I stayed at uni for
another semester, but you know me – and by you, I mean me, because
let's face it, I'm talking to myself here – I sat around and did
the minimum required to feel fulfilment at the end... that's two
years of a three year degree finished, but I can't see the final year
materializing in the near future to be honest. I volunteered at a
Salvation Army store because I thought it would look good on my
resume and I couldn't think of someone who would give me a nice
reference – OH! That's the other thing, I spent like six months
desperately unemployed
– the first six months of this year. Jesus that was terrible, I
don't ever want to be that unemployed again, lucky I turn twenty-two
in a month and qualify for Centrelink (YES!)(Yes?). Two-Thousand and
Twelve was skint, and really, really slow to get started.
I
finally landed a job around June selling energy door-to-door for a
joke of a man named Nathan in his AIDA franchise in Adelaide. That
job lasted for two and a half weeks and was
easily
the worst stretch of employment I've ever had, even if it was also
the shortest... a few funny things happened at that place though:
getting screamed at by the office pussy for lighting up in the back
of his brand-new car and spending the day at the pub instead of
knocking doors. Roaming the streets of some shitty suburban region of
mid-northern Adelaide belting out Ed Sheeran's 'The A Team' between
houses and sitting by the river under the bridge in Black Forest
hiding from the boss... not everything about that place was terrible.
The people and the routine got me out of the house for about twelve
days, and the brutal stupidity of my situation for those two and a
half weeks finally pushed me over the edge and into Melbourne.
Two-Thousand and Twelve was dumb.
I just remembered that we're
supposed to be pronouncing it 'twenty-twelve'. Sorry guys, too bad,
looks like the programming hasn't quite sunk in has it?
Two-thousand
and Twelve. I'm not changing
just because it's quicker – I'm going to need a really clever piece
of marketing directed at me from 180 degrees backwards and wrapped in
chocolate to get me to kick this inefficient habit of pronunciation.
Two-Thousand and Twelve sounds sexier.
Melbourne has been a
constant firestorm of new faces, busy evenings, words, pictures, and
no pedestrians... that doesn't really sound like a firestorm does it?
I think I'm trying to be over-dramatic... but Twenty-Twelve was a bit
like that as well... inconsistent. I found a calling this year –
maybe that's a bit over-dramatic as well, but it sounds ok to me, not
completely superficial. Stand up comedy has given me a place to go
where before there was only the night stretching out past sunset and
it has filled the void that used to bring so much dangerous
introspection. I finally feel like I am going somewhere, and doing
something with purpose, not just because I know it's healthy for me
to be filling my time with things. Two-Thousand and Twelve has given
me something that I am going to be able to carry around with me for
the rest of my life – a purpose. Don't ask me what that is just
yet, I'm not that far, I'm still figuring these things out, but
Two-Thousand and Twelve helped. Thanks Two-Thousand and Twelve,
cheers for the hand.
Quote of the year, although I think I
might have actually heard it last year to be honest, is as follows:
There is no way to
happiness,
happiness is
the way
That's Buddha, apparently,
but it doesn't really matter who it is, just what it says. After
everything that's happened in the last three-hundred and sixty-five
days, I feel like that quote could sum it all up pretty near
perfectly – the whole year, and all of the years before it, I have
only been having as much fun as I have been willing to admit. And now
that I'm over in the most hyped youth destination in the fucking
world, it's almost like I have to report back that I'm having the
time of my life... it's no coincidence though, that I really,
completely am having that time. The best time ever. And whether it's
because I came to a place that was supposed to be brilliant, or
because I found that place within myself, and then happened to move
cities, it doesn't matter. Two-Thousand and Twelve was
Happy.
Twenty-Thirteen?... let's go for 'spontaneous'. Sorry
about the sappy, seriousness of this post for anyone wonderful enough
to have made it this far. Thanks for reading, whoever you are, to be
serious for a second, if you have ever taken the time out of your day
to read anything that I've written and pushed out into the ether, it
means more to me than I can put into words here. Thankyou.
And I
promise I'll put more funnies in next time. Until then, dicks dicks
dicks. Big fat willy. Asses.
Happy New Year everyone.
Peace,
Taco.